Challenged by Caryn
Pick a literary quote/reference that inspires you, and do the opposite with it. (I PICKED A SONG)
Where my heart will take me
“A good turn-out, don’t you think?” I’m not really surprised that he doesn’t respond, although his rigid expression makes me sigh. “If you’re not going to smile at my jokes, can you at least pretend to look sad? I don’t think people will laugh at you if you cry” Frustrated at his lack of response, I turn away, and start wandering between the people. What the hell is she doing here? Backstabbing bitch, I knew I should have made a guest list. Sighing I just move on, I always found her drama exhausting, and being dead doesn’t change how I feel about her.
A few colleagues shuffle past me, sniffling as they go. “Yeah, keep crying you lying sack of shit. Everyone who knew me knows what I think of you and how much you hated me in return.” I’m so over this crap, where is the goddamned white light? Right now, I’ll settle for black smoke swallowing me. Anything to get away from this ball bag of an event.
I could have sworn I insisted on a no church event? I hope there is no lying penguin getting up on that podium screaming at the poor defenceless mourners about my supreme faith and how much better off I am. I can see it now. All the religious nutcases I have ever known, and who hated my open-mindedness and love of gay people will nod solemnly in agreement at how I was such a pillar of Christianity and all things pure and fanatical, and how I am so much better off where I am. Ha. Faith? Me? Imagine that.
Indeed, they send up a penguin. Well fuck. I won’t listen to this shit. I move away to the back of the church, but the thousand megawatt speakers blare out my faithful worship of a god that I never thought much of, a love of people that I never felt and a dedication to the improvement of life for all mankind. I wonder if the people here even knew me. At all.
I give up. Leaning against the pillar in the back of the church, I resign myself to suffering through this crap. The promise of a video clip made by a friend of mine peaks my interest. At last, someone that actually knows what they are talking about. The church goes quiet; just a few abandoned sniffles can be heard as the penguin scratches at a laptop, trying to get the cursed clip to play. Eventually, a picture of me standing somewhere against a thundercloud-darkened sky pops up on the big screen, and the sounds of “Where my heart will take me” starts up, and I actually burst out laughing.
This is the funeral song I chose years and years ago, when my dewy fresh youth still believed in the romance of life and death. It’s been a long road? You are not kidding. It’s been one hell of a long road. Long time?! Are you fucking kidding me? I don’t think thirty years is very long at all thank you. I’ve got strength? No one is going to bend or break me? Who dreams up this crap? Did you even see my remains? Do you at least KNOW how I kicked the bucket? Yeah, I didn’t think so.
The picture flips over to another one, and another. All cheesy pics where I pose awkwardly for a camera, clearly as uncomfortable in my skin as the cheesy song playing is out of place with who I am. I do have faith. Faith that this bullshit is a never-ending abyss of darkness and torment. God I wish I could still get drunk so I can delete this crap from my undead memory. There is nothing after this crap called life, and here I am, proving the fucking point, aren’t I? Just more crap. The high-light of today? I am going to follow that bitch home and drive her crazy.